at Length

Neighborn

—Christina Davis


I have hope in the sum
BERNADETTE MAYER




I did not let, gradually, myself be privatized,


did not let, did not let man plant
   the attribute of badness inside

my mind….   to have to live in
   someone else’s idea

is civilization.












I came and could not conserve myself,


came and could not metabolize
the happenings:


neighborn, I came amongthe touchable,











and, numerous in the grass, I was
a finger among fingers—

          on me
        the sun

paid the great attention,
a light not only
   in the serviceof persons,












and fell     & raised myself

up again to feet
     or near to standing,



for such as I was
I was eligible.











I did not come in the posture of apology:
I am the body here


for the ones buried,for each seed

secretly believing


it will be the repeated thing.











I did not let the names fall asleep
on the named,

I do not speak the sentencesthat sell things:

     Landlord and waterlord,

this which is ever being
tested on our animal.











This animal I am being
human in,

this nakedness

from which we are
not dismissed,

poor creature clad
in its brief Authority,


it occupies me











this errand out of narrowness,


this skull, healed too soon into descriptions

of a ceiling.

I do not think our minds should be so
many descriptions of a ceiling.











Thru self to arrive
at selves

and thru selvesthe self again,












so we continue the contrary journey.

















NOTES: The phrase “a finger among fingers” is drawn from Clayton Eshleman’s translation of Cesar Vallejo’s “[Until the day that I return, from this stone]”. “Landlord and waterlord” is a phrase Ralph Waldo Emerson used jokingly to refer to his newfound stature after purchasing a plot of land at Walden Pond. “Poor creature clad in its brief Authority” is a jotting in the margins of one of John Keats’ copies of Shakespeare, housed at Houghton Library, Harvard University. “Neighborn” originated as a manifesto for elected solitude and its unacknowledged magnitudes; it is dedicated to the inimitable “nay” of Emily Dickinson and other brave beings who have contributed their stone to the cairns of alternative journeys. I, too, have hope in the sum.









Christina Davis is the author of Cairn (a chapbook forthcoming in 2018); An Ethic (Nightboat Books, 2013); Forth A Raven (Alice James Books, 2006); and the manuscript-in-progress Mankindness. The grateful recipient of residencies from the MacDowell Colony and the Rockefeller Foundation/Bellagio Center, she currently serves as curator of the Woodberry Poetry Room at Harvard University.